Breaking all the rules

I'm a bad girl staying up this late. I was nasty to my husband, uncaring of the kids and now I'm trying to recover lost ground. I need to feel as though I am not going backwards. My spiraling behaviour was spurred on by the 1 (only 1! too) glass of wine I now regret having. Funny I tear strips off the kids for squirting chilli sauce around the house ...mainly Mr 4 yr old the culprit there and then act like a total idiot myself. Yes, it was only for a 5 min period if that but it killed any positive negotiations I may have been having until then. Oh I have a sinister heart!!
On a positive  note I applied for 3 (or 4?) jobs tonight ...all of which sounded pretty 'up my alley'. I can see how this potential job could save me from both myself and my children. Weird to consider how much relevant experience I do have in the industries of disability and trauma and domestic abuse. I often have felt cursed to be weighed down by these sad experiences but I have begun to appreciate the wealth of experience...visiting friends in Graylands, seeing friends applying restraining orders, children left without fathers...
Yesterday I got first aid certified and tonight I did 3 modules on disability sector so I feel my brain turned on...but tired. This great shot below is one of my team players: My Mum - tremendous support in many regards.

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