Counselling

Counselling I am so familiar with. I have given group counsel for breastfeeding, received counsel from a religious perspective , parental counsel, couple counselling, women's groups...
There is benefit in talking things and out and seeking clarification from an objective third person. I hate seeking 'counsel' on resume and assignments certain they are going to tear it apart...in a sensitive manner I'm sure! I just want to be able to write freely not second -guessing myself, considering whether I've made some inappropriate disclosure ready to be misinterpreted. I cringe at the critical eyes upon my work and it shocks me how wrong I am in how I write an assignment at times. I promise this year to be different though . I will humbly submit my assignments for scrutiny ...can't wait for those raised eyebrows, those incredulous looks.. like 'what ARE you on about?!?' It's a bit sad I don't look forward to university really...glad the financial needs require me to knuckle down and perhaps forgo study completely...at least for the meanwhile until we get money under our belt.
Just then I submitted an assignment (no-it was a job application )and makes me wistful about the jobs I once had. I wish I'd stuck with it. Why was I so quick to forget those dreams? I guess I thought I'd return to it but then children became all important and it did not seem the need nor did it seem the best way to bring up kids by me being away working. I should have allowed the deficit to gradually sort itself out though ; the hours cordoned off so I would not endlessly give to my children and husband. I regret that decision, one I made subconsciously perhaps. Most ironic when I have resented the imbalance of parent involvement over the years but then what have I done to turn the tides?!