Disloyal

I know you are thinking disloyalty is related to adulterous relations but that’s not what I had in mind . Moreso the disloyalty I frequently feel when my relatives , including my children , don’t feel the same as me about a topic and in a sense I disown them . I create a them and us mentality and sort of say ...well that may be your way but I’m not going with you . I have the nerve to act these notions out in rAther unconventional ways ; like acts of rebellion ...I will eat dinner without you. Or I will hide the bottle because I’m of the conviction that one’s enough and the rest is to be to share with our guests tomorrow . I realise i’m being self righteous and yet I still think I AM right. I dId think I’m open to negotiation but too often that has backfired on me as I’ve considered their wants and so-called  needs too much .
I’ve swung bwteen extremes I realise having felt belittled in the past and feeling like I’ve sacrificed my morals and conscience long the way to appease the kids ...and the husband . Now to try and find a happy medium .