Let down

Awoken @4am with messages from neighbours about the noisy guests we’ve allowed to stay at our Airbnb ...firstly the anguish and embarrassment it causes me personally ...i should have checked their credentials more carefully , quizzed them about their reasons for needing the accomodation . Instead I’m left with this deficit and all I can do is profusely apologise to the neighbours and bear their gaze as I drive up the street unable to meet their eye. I feel I bear the brunt of these actions , sort of left with the debris and much that I brace myself for these character-building moments I would rather we don’t go through them . Pressure from others- blame laid I feel more unsettled than ever . All I can do is worry about today and thank God no one is dead .
Only an hour before I had to reschedule Gabriella’s appointment because we haven’t paid the health insurance premium . That surely made me feel dumb - how wishful thinking was I hoping it would be covered by Medicare or moreover not allowing my mind to go there until the appointment came about . I finally made the humbling call to the health insurer asking about my options .
Things could be worse I remind myself .
When life turns bad get free poo